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Well....art wise, it's the same. I hope to find styles I'm comfortable with, like the ones I'm with now but I like spreading my wings out to newer and different techniques. I hope to meet new friends, both here on DA and on my tumblr, find more interesting people...
And god darnit I have to break out of this stupid military formality shit I've been pressed on since I can remember!
For those who are confused, I entitle others as "Miss", "Mr.", "Mrs." or "Sensei" My mother and grandparents raised me to have manners. And that I'm always, always suppose to speak formally to others. Regardless if they are my friends or not. Well that technique works and is okay; but I want to start feeling equal, not a submissive slave dog like my family seemed to want. I have many people I've talked to for MONTHS, a few even a whole year! And I entitle them still as "Miss", "Mr.", "Mrs." or "Sensei". I know when to be proper, I get that. But...I want to feel like a friend to others. Not seemingly this long stalking fan that only cares about whomever's artwork. I like having friends, but...I can't start feeling a friendship develop right if I keep calling them in formal titles!
So this year, I'm gonna start dropping the titles to those who I've talked to, am with a good (possibly growing) friendship, etc. Don't worry, I'm sure they'll know when I finally am done feeling like a slave dog and lower being to them XD;
That brings me to the next thing; talking to people. God darnit, each year is tough. Some tougher than others! But I wish to speak to others and be their friends. Not because I like their art; I hate that. Meh...but by learning whom the artist is, understanding them, see if things can turn out for a friendship, etc! It's difficult because I am worried always about saying the wrong thing or offending them, or the worst of them all; annoying them. Sure they say, "don't be afraid to talk to me! Let's RP! Let's get to know one another. I don't bite" but the fear is still there. Especially when they don't answer back to a question I've asked or an RP request I've given them. I try not to make it feel like it hurts, but sometimes it's harder than other occasions, especially when the said person is talking/rpying so easily with another person.
Blah blah, go away negative thoughts!
Anyways! Other resolutions, I am hoping to see how well I can do for PMD-Unity and Floraverse! They are really interesting worlds and have a good prologue to both of them.
Outside of the internet world, I am gonna be driving very soon (finally be happy and shut up, mother and grandpa! >B( ) and I'm trying to search for a job again and a college. I've got a college name down, and a few job locations. So I'm hoping--no, I'm praying that 2014 will finally be a better year than the last. And that I will have no regrets about the decisions I make in that year.
Sakradesu1992, You better stay as my friend and waifu even after I depart for college darnit!! YOU BETTER! XD
Peace out! And have yourselves a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
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